31st July,2016. 

I wish I had something great to write about. Something inspiring but alas,I don’t. 

Depression is my constant companion. I no longer want to be here. I’m sick of faking it. I watch DVDs without really seeing them. I knit without paying attention. This is no life. Day after day plods on. There is nothing to look forward to. 

I see the girls get excited about things and I often wonder if I was ever like that. There is no excitement in my life. 

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I’m stuck,in a hole that I really don’t want to get out of. 

I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake.