19th January 2016

I’m fed up. 

I’m in pain all the bloody time. I have a knee that keeps popping every single time I straighten it. Something weird happened to my left foot when I was stretching it,it felt like an elastic band and was being pulled and it finally broke. I can’t walk properly on that foot which of course has upset my hips. My right shoulder keeps slipping slightly out of joint and that hurts too. But there is nothing wrong with any of my joints. No one will believe me.

 The car rego is due and it is hubby’s job. He is being painful about it and of course I had to find a place that would do the inspection BEFORE the rego is due. 

It’s very hot and I’m over summer. We had a couple of lovely days last week where we wore jeans and long shirts. It was rather divine!

One of the cats had a really weird day yesterday. She took over my hand bag and got very nasty when you went near her. She is usually odd but even this was out of character for her!

I’m struggling depression-wise. I have chest pains and other weird things going on. 

Roll on winter. 

14th January 2016

The new year is here. I thought I was doing ok but the black dog crept in and had bitten me again. 

I just want to crawl into bed and hide but it’s been stinking hot here and I have a house full of kids. 

A few days ago I got an awful sore throat,felt like I was swallowing broken glass,not what I need right now. 

I’m tired and fed up. Miss Annie is very tuned to my moods so there is no hiding anything from her. I can’t even be bothered knitting which is very unusual for me. I was teaching myself to knit socks but my enthusiasm has waned. 

My body is doing lots of nasty things like heart murmurs and odd pains and trembling in my arms again. 

I don’t want to be here.