The paperwork for my procedures ( colonoscopy & gastroscopy) today. For some reason it has really knocked me. I’m scared,really scared.
The date has also changed which is a pain,I let DH know ASAP.
I have to be there at 7am,which I expected.
The instructions for the lovely flush out are there too.
My least favourite part is no seeds,grains or nuts for a full week before the procedure. No nuts!!! OMG.
I am not looking for to it at all.
The flush out,the procedure,the recovery( I don’t do well after surgery,I tend to have nasty reactions to meds or I tend to bleed ) and of course, the outcome of the tests.
The flush out has me worried as my body tends to over react to anything like this so I can see myself sitting on the loo for the whole time before the procedure with me in a LOT of pain.
I’m scared,I’m a lot more scared than I was before the breast scans. The thought of bowel cancer is more terrifying than breast cancer. The possibility of needing a colostomy bag freaks me out.
I guess I’m just really scared. The next few weeks will not be pretty so I guess I will be writing here a bit so I don’t annoy the hell out of my family.