27th February 2015.

Just 3 days to go until my procedure.
I’m starting my liquid diet tomorrow,I should starting on Sunday but I’ve heard it’s easier to start the day before you start the meds
Ice blocks and jelly have been made.
I’m as nervous as hell.
I feel shakey and nervous.
The girls have been primed.
Miss Annie wants updates during the day,when I got to theatre,when I’m in recovery,when I’m back on the ward.
I’m on the first list,which starts at 8am. I really hope I’m done early.
I don’t DO waiting terribly well.

I bought hubby a new sudoku book,I’m taking some washcloth knitting and a book to read to keep us amused.

I bought the girls a little treat to leave for them.

I’m not looking forward to the “preparation”. I’ve heard it can be hard. I don’t do abdominal pain very well. I can deal with any kind of pain,back,leg,head except abdo pain.

Paperwork arrived

The paperwork for my procedures ( colonoscopy & gastroscopy) today. For some reason it has really knocked me. I’m scared,really scared.

The date has also changed which is a pain,I let DH know ASAP.
I have to be there at 7am,which I expected.
The instructions for the lovely flush out are there too.
My least favourite part is no seeds,grains or nuts for a full week before the procedure. No nuts!!! OMG.
I am not looking for to it at all.
The flush out,the procedure,the recovery( I don’t do well after surgery,I tend to have nasty reactions to meds or I tend to bleed ) and of course, the outcome of the tests.
The flush out has me worried as my body tends to over react to anything like this so I can see myself sitting on the loo for the whole time before the procedure with me in a LOT of pain.
I’m scared,I’m a lot more scared than I was before the breast scans. The thought of bowel cancer is more terrifying than breast cancer. The possibility of needing a colostomy bag freaks me out.
I guess I’m just really scared. The next few weeks will not be pretty so I guess I will be writing here a bit so I don’t annoy the hell out of my family.

A very full week.

This week has has been huge and not all of it was good.
Sunday we discovered we had no hot water. As it was a long weekend here we didn’t get a plumber until Tuesday.

Having washes in the sink is not fun,esp for 3 teenage girls,but we managed.
Hot water was returned by Wednesday morning as we had to wait for the tank to fill and heat up. Right in time for Miss Lizzie’s for day in Year 12.

Tuesday night was very traumatic for us all as Miss Lizzie’s beloved rabbit Cappuccino passed away very suddenly in front of us all. One minute he was there,the next he was gone. We will all miss him terribly

While we were all very upset about Cappy,I got a shocking headache on the very top of my head. The pain was off the scale and I didn’t know whether to pass out or throw up. It was dreadful. My head is still sore. After a bit of investigation ,it seems it is called a ” thunderclap ” headache and rightly so. I’ll be speaking to my gp about it tomorrow.

Miss Lizzie returned to school,on Wednesday.

Miss Annie and Miss Mary went back to school on Thursday and both are pretty happy with their teachers.

The plumbers came back to finish of the job and we ended up with no hot water AGAIN until Saturday morning. It was very trying.

I had made an appointment to see a specialist after my positive fecal blood test. The appt was March 30th. After getting my test results ,they rang me with an appt on Friday. I have to say,I was pretty scared. I hadn’t asked to be put one cancellation list. My appt was at 12 noon. The doctor was lovely and I am booked in on the 3rd of March for a colonoscopy and a gastroscopy. Needless to say I’m worried.

On Saturday morning we went to a friend of Miss Mary’s to pick up these gorgeous critters
This is Miss Minerva

This is Loki

The plans for the kittens had been in place for a few weeks before Cappy passed away. They are a welcome distraction after losing Cappy.
We are keeping the kittens in Miss Mary’s room for a few dates to get them used to us and hopefully get the other cars used to them. When we brought them in from the car,Calypso took one look and hid in our wardrobe. Luna looked terrified but has since showed some interest.

Zeus,our black outdoor cat,has taken up residence a couple of houses up. We thought he had died as we hadn’t seen him for about 2 weeks. Miss Lizzie found him in their front yard. Seems they are feeding him and he has his own box on their porch. He is very reluctant to come home. I did suggest they stop feeding him so he will come home but obviously they haven’t.